- create an ego that will serve you not you serve it.
The Patterns of
One of the finest instruments given to us at the start of
our life here on earth is our wonderful and complex mind.
From the point of view of our meditation life the mind can
be a blessing, but, if not properly trained, a profound hindrance.
Its main feature is its malleability. This is also its
problem. It can be made to believe anything. Indeed, it can even
believe that it is in charge. It is programmed by its own thoughts, its own
creation, and the more a thought is repeated the more likely it is to be
The mind is a master of habit. A habit is a thought pattern
that requires no decision making process. For a computer this would be called a
program. We program our mind by repetition. Just reflect for a moment how
powerful this is. Just by repeating a thought pattern over and over, firstly it
becomes a habit (so we no longer make decisions about it) and most often it
becomes a belief, no matter how wrong it might actuality be. It is as though
the mind is on ‘automatic’ and it programs itself by the things we repeat to it.
It’s actually amazingly ingenious.
With this very same process it creates an ego, which is
really nothing more than a bunch of habits and
repeated thoughts about what has happened - our
past, and what might happen - our future. The ego exists only in the mind’s past
and future. Whenever we observe the mind we see this play of time. The ego does
not understand what exists in the now.
The mind has very little to do with the flow of love in the
present moment. However, the heart is completely in the present moment, which
also contains within it the entire universe and all of time, i.e. eternity.
From the present moment the heart in the flow of love projects out through the
mind in intuition, inspiration and creativity.
The mind and ego should really be a mouthpiece of the heart, but
most often it gets so carried away with itself and its own noise that it
completely shuts the heart out. It tries to make us believe that it is the only
reality, and attempts to do this by always keeping us thinking about the past or
the future, and never experiencing the present moment where it does not
understand who it is.
Charles lived on the earth a little over four hundred years
ago, a professor of science. The greatest minds at that time had concluded that
the world was flat and that it was quite possible to simply fall off the edge of
the earth. He had no reason to doubt this. Indeed the confidence and certainty
of the collective wisdom of the scientists around him had convinced him, but
somewhere deep inside him there was a nagging feeling that something was not as
it should be.
For years he lectured about the dimensions of this
principle, of how the earth stretched in flatness from horizon to horizon. But
then one day, a new paradigm emerged. A visionary, Galileo had seen a
different version of the world and even though his peers scoffed at the thought
of a round planet (‘why aren’t we all sliding off’) Charles felt the immediate
truth of his theory. He knew it was right. It would still be many more years
after Galileo that the world would come to see the truth of
This same ‘programming’ we are encouraged by our minds to do
on a minute by minute basis. It is the basic way we construct our sense of self,
our ego. Just as the globe is not flat, our ego is not us. We are not our
repeated thoughts. We are not the patterns of our mind, we are something much
This is again why meditation is so important. Meditation can
be a time where the ego is observed and we can come to appreciate the fickleness
of its constructions. Meditation is the best vehicle to travel the habits
of our mind and actively deconstruct those unfortunate paradigms that at their
worst, imprison us. The role of meditation is to centre our awareness back at
the point of perfect balance, when we are in our heart and our mind is its
Please imagine yourself as an observer of your mind.
Sit to the side of your mind and just watch your thoughts. Not to
criticise or condemn your thoughts, or even to analyse from where they
might have arisen, but just simply to watch.
See them in this present moment and realise that
thoughts from the ego are always time bound in the past or the future. If
a thought is about something you have done or you will do it is most
likely coming from the ego.
Remind yourself again, that the voice of the heart
is in the now, and always about the flow of love.
See if you can see some of your habits. Watch what
you dismiss. Look at your labels. And if they are negative habits really
deconstruct them. We deconstruct by reprogramming the mind with
Take your time. We have spent a lifetime on
Realise that the ego’s existence depends on the past
and the future, anything of the now it has ‘automatically’ programmed
into us to believe has no place.
But remember who you really are is not the ego. Who
you really are exists in the vast space that is the present moment
inside the heart.
When you are ready, begin to feel the real nature of
the present moment. This is where your heart is, where the flow of love
is, where peace is, where creativity springs from, where inspiration
flies – feel your real self, for this is the real you. Not the imagined
construction of a million trillion repeated thoughts.
Spend time here. This is real meditation. Breathe in
and out the flow of love and feel it all in the now. Don’t imagine
yourself better in the future or happier in the past, feel yourself
perfect now. You are!
Then when you are ready and you are coming out of
your meditation, please spend some time with your ego. Imagine that just
as we hit the ‘reset’ button on a computer, you are wiping all of your
past and future and reloading that which serves you. If your anxieties
and doubts and fears do not serve you than do not reload them. It is not
that we are hiding from our past, the events still exist, but it is we
that decide whether they are blessings or curses. If we look at our past
with regret or anxiety or even sorrow, than that is the ego that we will
create, conversely if we are able to see each event as gifts, then you
can see the difference.
We all must realise that it is we that have created
our egos, we are completely responsible for our thoughts and those that
we repeat. We are completely responsible for the programming of the
patterns of our minds. So it is for us, and only us, that must go
through the process of moulding and sculpting our egos in a manner that
will serve us. As instruments of our real self, our heart.
30th class you will have;
seen the benefits as well as
pitfalls of the mind/ego