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In Class 46 you will:
- get comfortable with
- let go of resistance to
enjoy effortless evolution
Every time we grow, evolve or make progress in our spiritual lives –some
part of us has to change. And for just about every change, a new way of
thinking -a new state of mind- is the first step.
Put simply, as we have mentioned before, to progress we must change.
This is such a simple concept and it lies at the heart of our spiritual
life. The more spiritual our lives, the more we change and the more
comfortable we are with change.
Nature is a perfect example. It shows us again and again that the more alive
something is, the more it changes. A tropical forest is so alive because
everything, every single thing within it, is changing every second. A
man-made city however, in our quest to make things constant and safe, is an
example of concreting over and tarring up, ‘insecticiding’ the changes
nature had in store, resisting the flow of nature. Eventually however,
everything has to change, for we have no choice but to progress.
Straight away this creates a conflict in us as our world says to us that
safety comes from constancy and predictability. For most of us our whole
lives are spent trying to make things known, to make things safe
-financially, emotionally and spiritually- by trying to make them
foreseeable, changeless, or at least impermeable to change. We even become
narrow minded so that we don’t have to think new challenging thoughts.
Even stranger is the quandary science finds itself in. In its quest to label
and make everything known, to dissect and reduce, it finds itself coming to
a place at its most fundamental (the quantum level) where it has virtually
no capacity to predict what might happen.
To come back to us and our lives, how do we get more comfortable with
change? How do we invite it? Indeed how do we love change?
It turns out that we do not so much have to search for change but let go of
our resistance to it. You see, change is a constant. It is natural. There is
a flow to our evolution. It is always there, the more we resist it, the more
difficult our lives become. There is a natural flow and a natural pace to
that change. Our impatience is another form of resistance, telling the
universe it is too slow or too fast and it is not to be trusted. We feel we
need to inflict our own timeframe, so we disconnect from loving the universe
from the natural flow and try and force things in our way and schedule.
How many times have you finally ‘got
it’ and felt the release of a pent up
block that might have been months or years in the making. Or seen in others
a simple change that would transform their lives but not been able to share
it with them because of the resistance you can see in them to it.
This resistance occurs at every level in us, except obviously from our soul.
There is physical resistance, mental and finally resistance from the ego.
Many times in meditation classes this resistance is obvious. Someone a
little scared, or a little unsure of what is happening, spends their time
fidgeting, or moving around, or unable to get their body to sit still whilst
the meditation is on, then suddenly is calm and relaxed once the meditation
Meditation is the fastest and best way to open and transform our state of
mind by simply letting the flow of change, our evolution, through. We just
let go of all of our resistance for a while and allow change through.
When next you sit to meditate, spend some time really getting physically
comfortable and then just completely disarm your physical resistance by
being completely still and silent. See if you can come to a place where you
feel as though everything has stopped and is still, your breathing, your
heartbeat –everything. Then just feel that your consciousness is going
deeper than your body, that your body is being dismantled and reinvigorated
for a while as it has the deepest, most efficient rest, and you become aware
of the deeper aspects of your being.
Mental resistance will take the form of all sorts of worries or doubts or
fears, perhaps even mundane thoughts about nothing important but enough to
side-track us and stop us meditating and changing. “Is this working?” “Am
I doing it?” “I can’t meditate!” “I am the only one in the world that cannot
meditate.” “Will I lose myself?” “What’s on TV?” “It’s a waste of time.”
“What will I have for dinner?”
Our ego will resist with all the things it has to do or wishes it had done.
It is all about the “do-do”! Its most fundamental resistance is with time,
it resists the now, by imprisoning us in the past or the future.
“After this I will do that and then this.” “Why did I do that?” “I should
have said that to so and so.” The ego’s resistance is so tied
up in the
events of the world, it will try to make us feel that there is something so
important to do right now, that even a few moments of meditation will
absolutely have to be interrupted, now! “I have so much to do, I can’t
sit here for 5 minutes.” “I am doing nothing, when there are so many
important things to do.” “As soon as this is over, I have to call ..” “Was
that an email?, my phone?” And also, of course, the ego fears losing
itself. Every time it loses its awareness of the passage of time, what it
has done or will do, it does not exist. In the present moment, in the now,
it does not exist, so it resists the depth and stillness and ultimately the
loving oneness of the now. It says “Where am I?” even “You might
die if you go too far with this.” Or “If you become one with
everything, YOU will cease to exist.” So sit with your ego and just
reassure that it will be all right. ‘There is nothing to do right now, we
are just going to relax into this now and be, not do.’
Spiritually, once our resistance has been relaxed, once we get out of our
own way, meditation can take place. The flow of love, the vehicle of the
highest change, can gently like a wave, illumine and enlighten any darkness
in our lives. We find ourselves expanding our sense of self, becoming larger
than we were. We realise a new, bigger way of thinking and the more we
change, the more the flow of love flows through us, the more we feel that we
are experiencing through all hearts, thinking through every mind, breathing
with every life. Our resistances seems so tiny, so insignificant – we wonder
how we could have ever had such a tiny way of looking at things, or that we
could worry so much about so many mundane or ordinary things.
The funniest thing of all of course, is that all change is so effortless,
so easy when we can let go of our resistance. In fact, it doesn’t feel like
change at all, our evolution becomes so natural, it becomes what is.
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Prepare for your meditation as usual
Take the time at the start of this exercise to
offer reverence and gratitude to the souls close to you in your life.
This could be family or friends or even animals or places that are
important to your soul. Take these few moments to acknowledge them,
offer them reverence and thanks for the gifts they bring to your
Breathe deeply and take a few moments to completely
relax your body so that you can meditate most powerfully. I’d like you
to feel that you are letting go of your body awareness as stage by stage
you let go of your body and move deeper. Firstly try to come to
stillness, see if you can get your body to complete stillness. If there
are places in your body that need your attention then stop and spend a
little longer there, sending love and relaxing that place, bringing
every part of you to complete stillness. It is as though every atom of
your body is filling with love and light allowing it to completely rest.
Start with your toes, insteps and ankles of both
feet, relax them and feel that you are allowing them to go to sleep
whilst your awareness becomes more and more intense, alert.
Then your calves and shins, relaxing – almost as
though you are putting your body to the side as you let it fill with
calm, relaxing light. Deeper and deeper is this feeling of relaxing
every muscle and coming to stillness as you move now to knees and
thighs, quadriceps and now both entire legs and feet are filled with
light and are still.
Moving to your hips and internal organs, stomach,
liver, kidneys, pancreas – take a moment to really offer your body
gratitude for how selflessly it serves you - lungs and physical heart,
chest, shoulders and neck. Let it all fill with love and light and let
your body ease deeper and deeper into complete relaxation, complete
Now feel the light flowing to your biceps and
elbows of both arms, elbows, forearms, hands and fingers.
Then to your face, your jaw, chin, mouth, lips –
relaxing – nose, ears, eyes - draw a figure eight of light and
relaxation around your eyes. Then your forehead and hair and the crown
of your head.
Every part of your body is now filled with light
and love and completely still, it is as though your whole body is asleep
and you are putting it to the side whilst your awareness has become
super intense and very alert.
As we move to the mind and ego bring your attention
to all of your thoughts, your conscious and subconscious, your past and
future, and bring love, acceptance and stillness again to all these
parts of you. Recognise that as we bring love, we bring ourselves to
this moment, now, and let go of your attachment to all that you have
done or might do in the future.
Deeper and deeper, and again it is as though in
stillness and this now, you are able to let go of your mind and ego and
go deeper with more alertness and clarity to that fundamental aspect of
us, our soul.
Deeper and deeper, and as we venture more and more
into our own soul we realise there is infinite love within us, infinite
light. Let go again and again, feeling the relief of letting go of
resistance and relaxing into our real nature.
Deeper and deeper. More and more love, and begin to
feel that you are expanding your sense of self - of who you are - into
the love and light that reverberates through every soul. We begin to
feel ourselves as the light that shines within all.
Deeper and deeper. Relaxing more and more. As we
let go of our resistance we feel more and more of our real nature being
revealed. And we realise there is a hunger within us, a deep longing, a
fervent aspiration that has perhaps been the most powerful urge of your
entire life deep, deep within you. As we search it out, we realise it is
the urge to expand our experience, to love more and more deeply, more
and more souls, with fewer and fewer conditions.
We let ourselves drink in this delicious hunger, we
relax into it and we feel the ache of our heart, the pain that is at
once absolutely excruciatingly beautiful and blissful. Our longing fills
us with gratitude and love, and the light and love floods us, like a
monsoon storm that will not end. We feel in stillness the most powerful,
most primal force in the universe, the expansion of love, and every part
of us is inundated by its exquisite blissful delight.
I will leave you in silence, but with each breath
let your soul take you deeper and deeper into the inmost recesses of the
deepest longing of love .. Really explore this ancient, most elemental
of all forces, this aching, longing to expand our love. If you let it,
it will feel more like home than any other feeling.
As we come to finish the meditation, and you look
back to your mind and ego, just remind yourself that you are not just
that mask, those roles that you have accepted in this life, you are
something much deeper. Realise that from this very deep place of love
that you are not one ego, but all egos, not one role but all roles. You
are not one father or mother, or brother or sister, but all mothers, all
fathers, all brothers, all sisters.
And as you come back to your body, again experience
the feeling that you are not one body, but every body, as you let go of
all resistance, you might come to realise that you are in everyone and
everything in love.